June 9, 2016

Oh my goodness! I just want to come out today and share something wonderful to me that I did yesterday.


So one of the goals that I have right now is to manage my self control, especially with sugar cravings. Here at work I am at a desk with a computer for 8 hours a day and my cravings can get a little out of control. People bring food to share all the time, and sometimes they almost expect you to eat it and eat it all. And it doesn't help that the vending machines here take debit/credit cards, like that awesome and super convenient, but for me it's not. And they have all the delicious easy foods that we would normally want, like peanut M&Ms or strawberry Poptarts.


Well yesterday I decided that I was only going to eat the food my dad packed for me, which consisted of a PPJ sandwich, an apple, carrots, and a bag of tortilla chips. So all that needed to last me 8 hours. Well it got to the point that I had finished my lunch, I still had two and a half hours left and I remembered the Buncha Crunch bags in the vending machine... Yes I know it's Crunch chocolate, but these little bites are actually really good!... But I knew I needed to keep myself in my seat and drink my water, which did help. I also kept telling myself there was probably something at home I could have once I was done that would be better and free, which I was right (a Dairygold white cheddar cheese slice and almonds :)).


So I went for the rest of my shift full on water, but also satisfied with myself. I was satisfied because I was able to control myself when before I would try doing that and I would just so happen to take my phone on a bathroom break and the breakroom is right there. So I'd make a vending machine stop. And now I know that I can get through 8 hours without spending an extra dollar on something that's just going to go right to my gut and I had something that tasted better and is better for me. But I also can go with the satisfaction that I didn't make a selfish decision. The other day my fiancé and I joined bank accounts and we have realized that money is going to be a big struggle for us for a couple of months, like with all newly married couples. And I don't want to be the one that creates a bigger problem before we're even married. And so I'm glad with wheat I did yesterday because I didn't spend a dollar of our needed money on a seconds amount of satisfaction, but now I have a greater satisfaction that I can do something right. And that's much better than a bag of Buncha Crunch ;)